It’s weeks before the end and nothing in me wants to keep going.
Sat down the other day and tried to define myself. Not for a paper, a job, or anyone else, simply for myself. In doing so I found myself staring at a long list of superficial, temporary ideals I’ve picked up along the way. Ideals that were not mine to start, nor would they support when I was called on to identify myself. These were shortell ed characteristics that helped me fit in and accept...
Note to Self
It’s impossible to exist in two different worlds. At some point you need to choose one.
COUNSELLING BLOG: How to Stay Motivated →
onlinecounsellingcollege: 1. Write your dreams down and pin the paper somewhere obvious. 2. Take it one step at a time, and one day at a time. 3. Make sure your dreams are realistic, and the timing is right. 4. Be completely honest about the costs, and what it’s going to take. 5. Once you’ve made the decision, plan…
When you feel perpetually unmotivated, you start questioning your existence in...– Ingmar Bergman (via peachgrl)
I am not a graceful person. I am not a Sunday morning or a Friday sunset. I am a...– Anna Peters. (via citrone-meringue)
Not in a good space. Keeping quiet to avoid bringing everyone around me down. But on another note I can’t wait to put back on my running shoes.
Work in Progress
Trapped by circumstance Caged by my reality
Pumzi. Wanuri Kahui. Check out this young Kenyan film maker’s short sci-fi film. It’s currently available on Netflix under Africa First: Volume One. Definitely check it out. Kahui infuses realistic/sustainable environmental concern with a futuristic/sci-fi take, all while being centered on the idea of an African authoritarian government. Truly remarkable! For more on Kahui check out...
"Love You Papi"
“Papi, do you have everything,” my mom yelled from the base of the stairs as I lugged my duffle bag down to the front door. She picked up a weird habit of calling everyone, regardless of their gender, “papi”. My weekend home had rushed by. It was now Sunday and my mom spent most of the morning cleaning and cooking lunch. “Do you want to take some of the food I cooked with you,” she asked as I...
I’m expected to know what’s next. Grad school, a job. But, I don’t. I know what I want to do eventually, but I don’t know what’s in my immediate future. I guess I will fight to finish school with honors, walk across the stage, then pray that the blank screen that I have accepted as my future post-graduation changes into an image or goal.
Three Books, Two Prompts, 1 Night
Clearly there is an issue of self loathing going on here.
It's Hard Not to Take What You Do to Heart
But, moving on…
Take 3 slow deep breaths. Then notice without any judgment what you are feeling....– Deepak Chopra (via meditationsinwonderland)
yagazieemezi: I see all my friends. Texting. All the damn time. People be hitting ‘em up and shit. Late night, giggly texts and shit. Long text messages and shit. And then I look at my phone. And it just looks back at me. And blinks.
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onlinecounsellingcollege: 1. First, quieten your rational mind as it has a tendency to hush, distort or quash the intuition of your heart. 2. Practice mindfulness. This is grounding yourself in the present moment, and being aware of all the sights, sounds and sensations that are happening in the here-and-now. 3. Go…